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Kyle |
10/16/2003 1:28:00 PM
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My name is Kyle, I’m 17 years old and have grown up in Overland Park, Kansas my whole life. Growing up I never really did anything wrong, I was probably one of the last people in my grade to even try drugs. But when I was 16 years old, I finally tried them and things soon got out of control. I started out just smoking weed on the weekends and slowly it became an everyday thing. I started to skip school to get high. I started to try other drugs like cocaine, Ecstasy, shrooms and prescription drugs. There wasn’t anything more important to me than getting high and using drugs. I only hung out with my new druggie friends. The more I hung out with them the more drugs I did.
By the spring of my junior year I was ready to drop out of high school. I had no motivation to do anything but party and use drugs. It seemed like the police were just drawn to wherever I was. My parents had to come and pick me up three weekends in a row from the police station. They realized that I had a problem and put me in an outpatient rehab. I really tried to stay clean, but I went back to my old friends and old ways -- I was clean for only13 days.
I started to fail UA's (Urine Analysis) because I knew that they would eventually kick me out of the program. Finally I did get kicked out. I thought that’s what I wanted because I still hadn’t admitted the fact that I was an addict. After that I went right back to all of my old habits, my life was once again falling apart. I didn’t realize it but I was using drugs to cover up what I was feeling inside. Everyone kept telling me that I needed to get clean but I didn’t care.
Now I am going to community college, working and trying to get my life back to normal. I am still using drugs. I know inside that I need to stop, but I just can’t. I am too ashamed to ask for help because I didn’t succeed last time. There isn’t any reason to get into drugs, all it did for me was screw up my life.
Overland Park, Kansas
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